My hero/Role Model

3 words that have 1 thing in common!

I've been hearing a lot of people these specific 3 words lately and those words are Truth, Love, and Trust... I've has about 5 or 6 people talk with me and bring into the conversation Truth, Love, and Trust! I'm not joking! some would say thats a coquincodince or just pure luck.. But I say it's God!! You see those three words all have one thing in common in my opinion! You want to know what that similarty is??? Well of course you do! And that similarity is Jesus! I'm serious! You don't believe me? Well then keep reading and I'll show you! Jesus LOVED us so much he died on the cross for us! Jesus is the TRUTH because he directly says "I'm the light the TRUTH and the way no one can to the father but by me" and If you TRUST In your Lord Jesus with all your heart and confess with your mouth that he is Lord then you are saved! See TRUTH, LOVE, and TRUST!!

What is Truth? A lot of people don't think it exists cause of all the crap that people did to them or all the lies people said to them! Some say it's whatever you make it out to be and others say it's Jesus/God/the Bible!

what do you say Truth Is?

What is Love? Some say it doesn't exist becauseall that they went through or are going through! Others say it's a physical expression people show to others they care about... And a Lot of people say it's God because he sent his only son to live on this earth a perfect life of 30yrs then go and die on the cross even though he never sinned! Yet he did what he had to do cause he LOVES us so much!!

What do you say Love is?

What is Trust? For me this is a very HARD topic because of all I went through! But yet I know to trust in God with all my Heart because I know he has a plan for my life and I know it's going to be AWESOMELY AMAZING!! some say Trust doesn't exist... Some say it's an action you can gain and loose drom people depending onwhat you do and the outcome from your actions! And a Lot of people say it's what you have to do with someone you truly care about even though they might hurt you.. You have to just realize that they are human as that God is your ALMIGHTY EVERLASTING rock!!!

What is Trust to you??


Thanks for reading I hoped you enjoyed my post! God bless!

Your Not a Mistake!

JEREMIAH 1:4-5 "Then the word of the LORD came to me,
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you;
      Before you were born I sanctified you;
      I ordained you a prophet to the nations."


You See you are not and never were or will be a mistake! God created you with a purpose yes God created you! And yes he exists I've been getting a lot of friends and random strangers come up to me or start having a conversation with me telling me otherwise! But listen God does exist and you were created by him no you were not a monkey! And even before he created you he knew you! And the he knew the plans he had for your life!! You see you can't be a mistake! No matter what your parents, friends, enemies, teachers or even strangers say you are and weren't and never will be a mistake because God created you with a plan and a purpose! I used to think I was a mistake because when I was born I was supposed to die! So I thought God was punishing my family with my presence or something! And well now I know I am not a mistake or a punishment for them but a blessing from God! God has a purpose for my life and that is to reach out to teenagers who have or are going through what I went through even if some of the stuff wasn't by choice! God wants me to show ten his love and he wants me to show ten there is a way better path than the one I took! There is a way painless, easier, and love filled path and that is called Jesus you see yes I am a Christian and yes I am saved but I could have avoided a lot more pain if I descovered how much agape love God has for me if I didn't choose the stuff I chose! So God wants me to reach out to teens and show them the easier but still tough other option! So I am going to become a youth pastor/counselor/missionary and travel all over and help teens all over the world because that's what God has planned for me!!! You see God could have let me rephrase that God has an amazing Plan and Purpose for your life! So stop telling your self you are a mistake it stop letting people call you a mistake because you are definitely not a mistake!

My Christian Point of View Review on Jeffree Star's Music

Ok to start off this picture is NOT a GIRL it is SERIOUSLY Jeffree Star!

Ok so I have done some research On this singer/artist by listening to his music, reading his tweets on twitter, and watching videos of him on YouTube.

Now I am not trying to put Jeffree Star Down or trying to be rude or anything like that I am just trying to show you my point of view and a christian perspective of it... So I have nothing Against him or gays its just I want to open your eyes to what you might be listening to or what your kids might be listening to.

Ok so Jeffree Star is very well known as being gay and he is very open about it for instance his lyrics support being gay and support having sex with other men and having it before marriage Jeffree Star also uses very foul language like "F*** me  I'm a Celebrity!" and "See me walk, see me f***, see me suck a lollipop..MM wanna get messy?!" and "I make you wanna f*** me just to get somewhere" also "I know you want to suck me what you waiting for??" now all these lyrics are coming from just one song! The song is called Lollipop Luxury but you think that song is bad?? ALL his songs are like that! He encourages people to want him! and he encourages people that its alright to be full of yourself  his song lyrics, YouTube videos, and pictures shows how much he loves himself! He is very rude and arrogant when it comes to talking to his fans! Jeffree Star's Songs also mention a lot about murder and being a prisoner and rape and such things which are also not good things to encourage!

Once again I have NOTHING against Jeffree Star or Gays I just don't believe encouraging people the way he does is right!


Here is a verse to back me up

Leviticus 18:22 - "Don't lie with a man as one lies with a woman; that is detestable."

there are many more but I couldn't list them all...

So here is my point of view If I continued to listen to this type of music like I used to I would start to  agree with the gay way of life and I actually caught myself starting to have feelings for the same sex!! but I became stronger in Christ and stopped listening to this kind of music and got my life straightened out! so you see if you a weak believer and listen to this stuff it might pull you down with it!! so I advise you to be very careful and watch what you listen to!

Have you ever had one of those days where you felt as if the whole world was on your shoulders and everyone was just pushing you farther into the earth?

Well I have those days very often actually but what I realized what I need to do is to stop looking at what's in front of me, behind me, on my the one side of me, on the other side of me, and looking down! I realized I need to look up at God and just praise him because he knows what he's doing, he has a plan for me, the good part of life Is not far behind, and because this is going to make me closer to him than when I didn't have anything wrong!

You see when I just look up to God the issue or issues dont look as big as God is! They look smaller than ever! And I am able to get through them easily instead of me looking away from God and the issue or issues look even bigger and they seem to never end And I get farther away from God!

God never gives us an issue or issues that are too big for us to handle!

So stay strong and look to God!

Influence... what influences you??

Influence.... Who and what? is my question for you..

What is influencing you? Music, TV, school, church, the computer, movies, mother nature, art, writing,etc.
Who is influencing you?? God, Teachers, Pastors, Friends, Parents, Actors, Artists, Musicians, Models, Singers, Freedom Speakers, Fashion designers, Chiefs, authors, producers, etc.

now here is a check list that I want you to go through with that influence in your life.. doesn't matter if it's a object, hobby, person, job, etc.

1. Is it/they teaching you to obey your leaders/parents/teachers/bosses/ anyone who is older than you?
2 is it/they showing you that it is wrong to lie, cheat, steal, have sex before marriage, kill, do drugs, party, drink when underage, etc. ?
3. is it/they telling you should not rebel or go against God or the law?
4. is it/they telling you to be yourself and to show your own style?
5. is it/they saying you are here not to just have fun but you have a purpose?
6. is it/they telling you to not attract guys/girls for wrong reasons?
7. is it/they staying in line with the law?
8. is it/they teaching you to give your all in all that you do?
9. is it/they giving you a good example to live by?
10. would you say it/they would be something/someone you would want to reflect as?

If you answered no for most of these questions I would honestly make sure this person or thing is a truly good influence in your life...

cause if you disagree what I am saying would you want your kids or even future kids growing up and being just like or what the influnce is or wants you to be??? if not I would reconnoiter what influences you...

That quiet place

I was sitting in the car today... and the hustle bustle of all the cars speeding past, the radio blasting, my mom, little brother, dad, older brother, and his wife all frantically talking and laughing was just getting to me.. I needed to get to that quite place... that place where I could just focus on what was meaningful and important that place where I would feel that peace, acceptance, love, and comfort... Do you have that quiet place? that place where when you feel overwhelmed, stressed out, scared, concerned, worried about the next day or next week?, angry, or sad you can just stop whatever you were saying, thinking about, or doing and just take a deep breath and practically freeze life and just take a break from it all?? Well I most certainly do... right now my quiet place is listening to calm contemporary christian music, being alone, and blogging to all of you..  like for example if I can't get in my quiet place because I'm in school, the car, at the store or out with friends I just pop in my head phones change from a heavy metal song or a fast paced or loud beat song to a soft and calm contemporary christian song like hillsong united, Jason Gray, Tenth Avenue North, David Crowder band, even switch foot and just close my eyes and "zone out the world" or well just my surroundings.. and focus on God and his love for me and maybe talk to him under my breath or in my head... and do that until I feel like I am able to open my eyes and "come back into"
the world...

What is your quiet place it doesnt have to be music or even with God it could be drawing, reading a good book, writing, sitting in the dark deep in your thoughts, singing, playing your instrument, starring at your wall, on your computer, taking photo's, even just sleeping...

I try to go to my quiet place every day just to wind down from the hustle and bustle of this drastically changing A.D.H.D. world and talk to God because he is my best friend, role model, daddy, creator, and counselor... he knows me more than I even know myself! I talk to him and he talks back not actually talking back more like that small still voice in the back of my head or in my heart sometimes its like im thinking what he is saying myself and I write it down in my journal, on a napkine, on my hand, even sometimes when I am talking to a friend! all I know is I can detach my thoughts and voice from his... ya he's kind of like my conscience yet better he knows way more and he always will! But yeah I try to go  to him in my quiet place every night because if I dont I catch myself freaking out, having a mental or emotional break down or making stupid or wrong choices cause I chose to not take 5, 10, 15, 20, even to a half hour or even 10 ours of my sleep or hangout time to talk to him!

What is your quiet place? Do you go to it as often as you should? do you think you need one if you dont have one??

In my life Music is becoming a hazard

Music... to many is just a catchy tune or a melody you listen to on the radio. But to me Music is much more its like therapy to me it's my escape like some use art, writing, friends, drinking, drugs, relationships, family, school and other things as an escape I use music. It is more to me than a catchy tune or a use of words or a fun melody or a thing to dance too. I listen to all kinds country, rock, screamo, punk rock, metal, classical, hip hop,Rap, and maybe even some christian well maybe depends on my mood or what type of "therapy" I am in need of. I actually have been catching myself listen to music even more than before! music is becoming such a part of me! I mean I don't go a day with out either listening to the radio, or checking out a Song on YouTube or listening to my iPod! Ive even ruined CD's because I listen to them so much! To much? Maybe? Just a little..? I think so... I have to watch because if I get so over whelmed with my feelings: anxiety, stress, anger, sadness, happiness, worry, negativey.. Then I forget the real reason why I am here or how I am still alive! Because of the Grace of God I am still breathing! So I need to watch because I can catch myself making it my priority to listening to this certain song or making my whole day around this one band, song, or singer! But what I need to do is make my priority God to want to take time to take to God! I need to plan my day around God and what he wants me to do rather than Music because yes music is fun and relaxing and all yet it's not an everlasting thing yes God created music yet he created it so we would use it to praise him not to defy him! Music doesn't save us or isn't there for us in our times of need! So I need to watch and make sure Music isn't becoming like an idle to me! So I am trying to listen to more Godly music and use that time to praise God with it rather than to defy him...

I guess my question is What do you catch yourself doing or using to fill the void of the almighty with...? What's the idol in your life that you need to take a break from?

My Life's Daily Routine

Another day goes by as I just keep living life as a daily routine no change no spontaneous fun just a routine of School, Home, Church and it just keeps repeating nothing special about that right?

Well I've been looking out the window of my bus I take to school and I realized wow there are so many people out in this world! Wow so many people to make a difference to! So many people to change! So now as this day goes by I've changed my routine of life now it's not School, Home, Church it's now School, make a difference, Home, make a difference, Church, Make a difference, Friends, make a difference, and change a life... I think I like that routine for my life a lot better! Because now it's full of spontaneousness!

What's your life routine? Would you change it if you could?

Lifes a Journey

Life is a Joureny in it self... Don't y'all agree with me? Well if not then either you were born yesterday or you are perfect because you haven't experienced the long upside down roller coast ride during a horror film called real life! Yeah... I know the whole upside down roller coaster ride during a horror film is a little much but that barely describes my life and it's issues! That analogy I used definitely sugar coated my life and it's history.. Well lifes journey will come to an end on this earth when you die... Yet it will never end in the spiritual life... Your journey might be in hell or in heaven... It's your choice.. It's your fate what life journey do you choose?

One of those "I hate life" kind of days

Have you ever had one of the those "I hate life" kind of days? I sure have if you haven't then I think your crazy! Everyone has one of those days maybe they have more than one in a row? Well the reason I am writing this to tell you that you are not alone!! Because I bet on my life that others have or are going through the same things! And I wanted to tell you this! Life is like a giant unsolved puzzle there are rough, sharp, and hard pieces just like in life and there are smooth, dull, and easy pieces the same as in life!! So listen to this! Even Though you might be going through a rough patch in life it just means there is a smooth easy ride in life just around the corner! So please don't give up! Stay strong and fight! Fight till the end because you need to fight now when you are Alive and sleep when your dead! I am fighting right now so join me! Join me in the fight to be different, unique, to stand out, and make a difference! And sooner or later our Life puzzles will be solved and put together and we will no longer have any more questions because they will all be answered!

So let's fight till the end of time! who's with me?